like today , i knew i made my mother irritated as she wanted to run 6rounds, but i made her go after she completed 3 and me completed 1.
and say ' @ night still can go what.'
and then i decided to treat her better by taking a chair for her, getting a plate for her to put her pancake and such.
when my dad wanted the scissors i could see he was piss , i went to the kitchen with him to like help him.make him feel happier that someone actually wanted to help him and i got scolding from my mum , those irritated faces, got some dumb comments from my dad and worst, got scolded by my sister for nothing when i just wanted to take a pancake.
whats wrong?
is it with me or with people around me ?
i feel nothing going right for me.
would things have change if i was prettier/skinnier i keep on thinking that.
i always dream of the impossible.
like i am so pretty and everybody like me.
i even thought that certain people was together with me they all like me alot , like make me feel so proud.
ok these are just unrealistic cause such things couldnt happen
f*cking wake up samantha wong pei ting.
you are not a princess you are not pretty you still got @ least 50 yrs ahead you and they are going to be worst so you must be stronger and get ready for harder challenges.
its hard so what.
outside the world there are people without food and water and yet they try to make best of life.
yet you have nice food, nice water, nice place to live in and such and you complain.
when you dont have food then you wont be thankful @ all when you turn into a skeleton.
i am trying to make myself love life, but somehow i cant )-:
breakfast-mac (1/2)pancakes+sausage:-) yum in your face. maple syrup :-)+ one slice of bread w peanut butter and beancurd and yoghurt w two digestive biscuits with 30 grapes, mooncake and hotdog and.......milo and soyabean and. ......
lunch-three bowls of porridge (wins alr ) + dishes and mooncake.... and i forget already la :@
dinner-rice+dishes + pineapplen tarts and ....
yesterday fell asleep as early as 10 and by the time my family was enjoying our fav show :BOF
And luckily my father taped it down